谁能明白我的心情？

还就不见的部落各
你好吗？

“远方”的你，好吗？
虽然你就在我不远处，
但总是感觉到我们的距离很远很远。。

最近真的发生了很多事情
很多不开心的事
但却很少开心的事
是我太悲观了吗？看不开？
还是事事真的难预料？

就开始说“你”吧

最近都发现到你状态不是很好
很想关心你一下
但却没有那股勇气
你，怎么了？
读书压力大吗？
还是遇到什么不愉快的事？

我知道我不是什么大美女
我知道我没有资格要求你看我多几眼
更不可能要求你对我比其他人好
我只希望你可以把我当做好朋友
什么是都可以与我分享

我发觉到我的记忆越来越差了
如果我再不写部落各的话
我怕我真的会把你给忘了
我不想把你给忘了
所以请你住在我的心里好吗？

我也知道我只能做你的守护神
默默地在你的背后
为你加油，打气，支持你
我现在不会让你知道
因为我想要让你自己慢慢去察觉

原来，你的背后有一个这么傻的女生！

有时我总觉得为什么这个世界那么不公平呢？
明明就是同样的人，
但是为什么就不同命呢？

我其实很简单
我想要的东西都很简单
“一个幸福的家”

我的幸福的定义就是，
我想做的事情，
总是会有爸爸妈妈的支持
支持我做对的事
反对我做错的事

在我还没跌到前，扶我一把
在我伤心时，安慰我
在我开心时，陪我一起开心
在我生气的，给我意见
就这么简单

我其实想要的很单纯，请不要把我看得很复杂！

曾经，有某某人对我说过
“交朋友也是一个负担”
昨天，又有某某人这样跟我说
其实我也蛮赞同这样的说法
因为和朋友出街要花钱啊
哈哈

我的想法就是
只要他们是我的知心朋友，好朋友
我都不会犹豫为他们花着小钱
因为他们真的带给我很多欢乐，很多笑声
跟他们在一起真的觉得很自在，
很喜欢这一种感觉

但是，每当你们遇到不愉快的事时
都会把它藏在心里
有时我看见你们不开心
我也会跟着不开心的
所以，把我当做出气筒好不好？

放假了，没有你们的日子
真的是有点不习惯
因该是很不习惯才对
你们这班傻佬和傻婆
快点找我出去好不好？

你们是最好的，知道吗？=）

还是谢谢你让我.. 长大了..

这是我有史以来做过最高心最快乐的一份工作。
但是我们在一起工作的缘分就在此结束了。
我超想念他们的，真希望有一天还能继续着一个缘分。=(

在这一个月多里，我获益不浅，也学到了很多东西。
让我这一个又白痴，又傻呼呼，又任性的一个女生长大了。
原来在社会工作是要懂得忍耐，以求进步，还有随时都要抱着一个好学的心。
不是只是要顾自己门前的雪，还要懂得去关心，去照顾，去包容他人。
哇～ 我想应该不只是这一些些吧，我应该要学的东西还有一匹布那么长吧。

离开他们已有三天了，在这三天里，我超想念他们的，我好想继续做下去。
在和一个月多里，虽然有无奈，也有留过不少泪水，但是我知道，这完全都是对我好，也让我变成熟了。
不只是着一些啦，也有很多笑声，很多快乐，也少不了他们最独一无二的"fu xing"。
这个"fu xing"只有在Romp One Utama才找得到的哦。=）

唉～ 忽然觉得好不习惯没有他们的日子。
不习惯没有了"fu xing"
不习惯没有人叫我"小妹妹"
不习惯没有人在我的水瓶上写"妹"
不习惯没有人问我"check完display了吗? 要快点啊"
不习惯没有人问我"小妹！要和珍珠奶茶吗？"
不习惯没有奇奇怪怪的笑声了。
不习惯没有看到你们的样子。
不习惯没有大大声喊你们的名。
都是你们，让我低调的生活贴上了许多色彩，许多快乐。
让我工作起来多是笑着，又自然。

(Supervisor)
Sou
Esther
Jason
Enal

(Sales)
Po
Sing
Ron
Vinz
Keong
Desmond
Kit
Zhun

(General Worker)
Shi Min(不用想她，应为我每天都见到她) =）
Maggie
Chen Yee
Shin Ein
Vinxton
Siang
Ah How
Ah Kiat

应该没有少了谁吧？？ =）

谢谢你们让我学到了很多东西，指导我，教我，才有今天的我。
你们就像我的哥哥姐姐，弟弟妹妹，就好像个大家庭，也是我生活上的一份子。
我会想念你们的，永远都不会忘记你们可爱又搞笑的笑容。=）

谢谢你们让我，

长大了！

A very MERRY CHRISTMAS.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!
Hmmm. How's going on ??
I guest everyone are celebrating Christmas now with families and friends. Hmm. But I'm lonely. Staying at home with facebook and blogging. Haha. Nevermind. I do that every year.

So now let's go on on my current job. (:

I'm now working in ROMP ONE UTAMA with one of my best friend shi min. Yesterday was my 4th day. Is actually quite fun ( I Think ) but is at least better compare to my pervious job, promoter and supervisor. Aghhh. I hates that job to the max now. Hahahaha ( Just kidding ) I don't mind doing something I don't like as long as you pay me on time. Nah~ Don't think too much my friends. (: Although is very tiring and standing all day long, sometime feel very stressful too, but people there were quite nice and fun too, that's why the time pass very fast. Hmm.. I enjoyed sometime. (:

1 more week, we have to say good bye to 2010 and welcome 2011. Are you feeling excited ?? Or you feel that you're getting older?? For me, I feel excited, because I'M GROWING UP !! I'm not longer a teenagers anyone. I wants to show off my identity card to all those people who said I look like 12. Haha. (:

Oh ya~ I feel piss off sometime when someone help me to decide my future. I hates this to the max. Oh come on la ! This is my future, you don't have the priority to help me to creat it. I don't like it ! I have my dream, I wants to do whatever I want. I have my choices. And I have the priority to build my pathway. Instead, if someone ask you to do something you don't like, do you feel happy ?? That's what my feeling now. So don't be so busy-body okay ??

Yawn~ * I think that's it la. GOOD NIGHT !! And once again, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND MAY YOUR DREAM COME TURE !! (:

Cried With No Tears.

Long time no see, so far so good ?? Do you miss me ??
Finally Trial's examination had end. But it doesn't means the end of the Exam in my life, I still have long long way to go.. When will it end ??

About 40 days left for SPM Examination. Truthfully speaking, I still no really understand a complete chapter for a single subjects, What should I do ?? No much time left for me, and I should be honest, I'm very stress and stress and yet still stress. Although I look strong, be I'm not as strong as you think. Although maybe my image of for everyone, I do not care about my examination result that much, but in reality, in my heart, I do not mean that. I very depress and I feel very sad if my results couldn't get as what I expected. I guest everyone has the same feeling right ?? Hmm.. But I think I'm different compare to the others, because others peoples wouldn't be so sad until a long period of time, they'll forget about their sadness and move on to be more hardworking to be better. But why ?? Why couldn't I be like them ?? I'll keep all my sadness in heart and I would not tell others people. As the result, I can't move on. This not only in my studies whereas also in my daily life.

I very hard to made a decision that I wanted to do. Even a choice between books and school. I very hard to decide whether I wants to go to school or just do my revision in somewhere more peaceful place. I can keep thinking and think whether which 1 should I choose and its makes me lost alot of my time. So ended up, I get nothing. This happened to me alot of time. Not only between books and school whereas also better friedship and relationship. Obviously I'll said I choose friendship instead of choosing relationship. But you never know, something can even change suddenly. If someone keep counser me, I'll lost and choose relationship instead. How stupid am I.. This is just a prediction, at the end I choosen friendship. :)

I think I better stop here. Because I wouldn't wants to continue. If not I have nothing to write for the other coming days. LoL (Lame)

Good Bye !! Good Luck and All Da Best to everyone of my friends and form 4's. (:

A very fully-"booked" days.

My days are fully-booked by marching stuff, no time to study, no time for my singing practice, no time to hand out with friend, tuition.. and even more..

I'm feeling so stress SO stress and yet also STRESS !! I keep telling my friends not to give themselves to much of stress, just relax. But.. Why can't I do that ??

I feel like I'm a unsuccessful person, my friends and teachers are giving a lot of chance to show my talent, but why can't I do that ?? Why am I so easy to been influenced by other people and give up so easily ?? Why someone keep saying I'm just a small girl and I can't do big stuff ?? I can I really can !! Why you people like to look at my appearance instead of ability ??

Please do not judge me by my appearance if you do not understand me well !!

Will be continue..

Bravo !!

Is the day for me to say YES !! loudly, because mid-year examination had come to the end( for pure science only), and finally I no needs to wake SOO early in the morning and lag of sleeps, tonight I can sleeps sweet and sound :)

On top that, tomorrow we 3 sampat girl ( Me, Mun Nee and Shi Min) planning to go to the curve cathay cineplax and red box. WooRayyy ~ There is like more then 6 months I didn't visist the curve. This time must put all my effort in my singing skills. (Haha just only a day ):

Besides, I actually quite pity the art class and sub science students, they have last paper to go tomorrow, which is Prinsip Akaun. I bet they sure don't have the mood to study, I understand their feeling, because I'm a student too. As a student, majority of them sure planning what to do or where to go after exam, just like me, because they're too excited on it, therefore their mood is effeted. Agree ?? However, My lovely friends, TRY YOUR VERY BEST on last paper k :)

The weather is dam freaking hot now after a rain, make me bath 4 times per day, waste the water. (LoL) By the way, do you think that our mother earth will end on 2012 ?? Even we're still alive on 2012, but majority of the humans will get suffer, because earthsquake, tsunami, and many many more had come to the equator of the earth, which is our country.
So my advice is.. Appreciate whatever you have now, because we're very fortunate compare to the countries. Try your best to achieve what you wanted !! :D

That's it my blog.

So Far So Good ??

I'm back to update my half death blog... Hmmm... :)
But I have only 15 minutes.. After that have to go tuition..

Facebook for me is getting bored and bored yet is also BORED !!
But I wonder why some of them can online in Facebook the whole day ??
Seriously I can't ! I can't face the blue and white layout, cause the longer time I'm in the facebook, my eyes will get blue and white faster.. LOL..

Yesterday I went to a "place", but I cannot mention where is it.. Not convenient..
Nowadays peoples are getting realistic.. Why am I saying so ??

Because if you were rich, they would give you good service, if you had no money, they would ask you to back off and stand a side.. I would like to ask these people in reality : Money is that important to you ?? Do Money is your face, your dignity?? What if when someone has taken you as a joke, what will you feel ?? Do you feel proud when you had lost you dignity ??

Skip skip skip*.....

Got to go now.. Soon back... :D